Fluid

It would be so great if we have all information for us to do well, it means it’s far easier to make decision, take perpectives and reflect on where you have been and where you are going. In many of our lives, that is becoming a history – no matter how much we try, more tools to keep track of activities, more creative alerts or notifications, many of us are at a stage where keeping up to what’s going on is not only not a priority, it’s no longer what we seek to do every day, because it is possible to achieve. We might spend all day to get to the point we are completely “synced” with everything else, only to find we are exhusted and to stay on sync means we need to keep sync-ing, but we have jobs to do.

PicWhether I have become unpopular, disliked, hated, or “more” unpopular etc. is something I try not to think much about. This is the core of well-being. The fact I am not in-sync is cause of anxiety, however, in the act of keeping up to sync, there are so many other matters at hand that potentially some of these are anxiety triggers themselves, and often they pile on more anxiety making it impossible to sync with anything. This appears to be advice from mental health specialist that we should back out of such kind of spiral condition, focus on the presence, get away from the unquantifiable amount of perceived-perhaps-unfounded anxiety and guilt. Not to brush away what might be some “tension” between ourselves and our collagues, but where and when we could do well, then we should. It does sound like we need to “select” what and when we could do to the optimum level of our capability: this sense of “selection” sounds rather crude, but for some of us who find it hard to keep up, and keeping up in itself is cause of anxiety, being able to “select” is a sort of safety net that we don’t let ourselves run to the ground.

So many words above; I have found that great amount of pressure recently from not keeping up with all that’s going at work. I miss and am still missing a lot of key information. But overall it is far better for my mental well-being this way, than any other way.