Far better that I remain where I am, the friend said.
He has not chosen to join discussion group. It’s a deliberate choice. He prefers to think things through.
The friend has been doing a lot of thinking for years, decades. It’s not that I think he thinks in some fruitless way. There is satisfaction in thinking.
Much of the external environment does not align well with what my friend thinks about. He does not think in response to his surrounding; he needs to work out, to think effortfully, greater matters of death and logic that brings movement to his soul, and calm to his life.
My friend and I are alike. I remember when we were in our teenage years, we had what turned out to be important phone conversation one evening. That could be a life-changing conversation he needed at that time. It meant that an important decision was not made.
I think what he discovered was that the “methods” to understanding should be rooted in something else, instead of going out all over the place to look for them. That “else” could well be the nexus of self (himself) – not that the answer lies in him (or anyone person), but it ought to begin from within. Saying that, I don’t have resolution on how he is on this journey, and while I think what I said applies to him, I do not really understand what I just said. But he appeared to agree.
